I’ve always been a guy who doesn’t exactly fit in….and I like it that way. I’ve always been different than others for some reason. I’m not a joiner, impressed with cliques or impressed with labels or status symbols. Oh, and on the flip side, I don’t have a tattoo, I’m not a rebel and I don’t really care what anyone thinks of me. Sorry. 🙂
For that same reason, I’ve never really fit in when it comes to organized religions. I’m not the type that thinks sitting in a pew, under a particular roof gets me any closer to the pearly gates than sitting on the beach and being awe struck at the wonders of nature. With all that being said….I have faith. Faith in God. To be honest, if you don’t…..I don’t know how you make it through the day!
Here’s the Story
Here I sit with stage 4 cancer and I’m not even 50 yet. You can read more about my carcinoid cancer story here. Doctors are telling me that if I’m lucky I might live 10 years. I have a wife who I love dearly and a 6 year old son who is the apple of my eye. Oh yeah, lost my job, wife lost her job, trying to sell my house…no luck yet, money…what money?! Believe it or not, it get’s worse. I didn’t even tell you everything. So what now? Quit? Give up? Start hating? Nope. I can’t do it. Let me explain to you why.
Why I Have Faith
Now, I know that there are some that would like to debate this scientific theory or that scientific theory but, this post is really not for those people. It’s for those who know that at one time science believed the Earth was flat and that they still can’t seem to settle the margarine vs. butter debate. Do you know what I mean? Let’s just say that scientists are human, fallible and biased just like anyone else. Some even skew data to prove points they already believe or to get money or fame. So, if you put your faith in science and scientists then you might not like this article but indulge me a little if you will.
Let’s boil this down to the simplest concepts and build it up from there if we can. When I look around I see the wonders of nature, the joy abundant in the world and the beauty of the natural world. These things all stand out, in my opinion, as sign posts that point to a creator. After all, why is there joy? The answer is because God is joy. After all, there is no need for a fluffy tiger cub to play and bounce and scamper if the universe is soulless. We could easily have evolved without joy and have been completely successful as a species and as a creation. After all, there is no evolutionary benefit to joy. The same goes for beauty, love and every other good thing we observe in our world.
My choice is to embrace the creator of this joy, beauty and love and to trust God with my life. That includes my health, my money and my family. Otherwise, I have nothing. Don’t you agree? Everything that I have will be taken from me when I’m gone and will be left to others to care for….to neglect….or abuse. My ties to the everything that I love will be severed and so if I have no faith then I have nothing. If I do have faith in a loving God then I know that everything that I love will fall into the hands of my loving creator.
I choose to embrace the creator who calls us all “God’s children”. After all, I know how much I love my son so, by extrapolation, I know that God’s love for me is so much greater. Agree? Otherwise, I am a ship adrift in a stormy sea with no engines and no sails and I have nothing to anchor to…just battered by the sea waiting to sink. I choose not to believe that. I choose to embrace the God that can lead me through the storm. I’m hanging on…I might be sea sick and bruised but I’m not giving up. I choose to have faith and I choose to lead my family to safer shores even if I’m not there to be with them in the end. Although, I have faith that God can get me there too.
How Do We Begin?
Well, before I begin I must tell you that I am not a doctor and I am definitely NOT a theologian. So, don’t expect some deep and penetrating thoughts but, I will tell you why I still have faith even though all “heck” 🙂 is breaking loose. It comes down to trust. When you think about things, it doesn’t matter if you think that you came from a monkey or directly from the hand of God. It all really boils down to faith. You either have faith in God or faith in something else.
Recently, I watched a story about the formation of the universe and they showed the universe moving back in time. As they rolled back time they showed the universe as it contracted until it was a super dense, tiny ball of matter and energy. That ball of matter and energy exploded in the “big bang”.
What the creators of these shows never talk about is something I think of as “first cause”. Where did that little ball of matter and energy come from and what caused it to explode in the first place. In the end, you either believe that God is the “first cause” or you believe in some soulless mechanical process that is either eternal or miraculously appeared from nothing. I believe that God is outside of the universe and therefore IS the “first cause”, the MIND behind “the beginning”. This is the first reason I have faith. To me, it just makes sense to assume the first cause of everything is God and not some mechanical process. Neither idea can be proven but, to me it makes perfect sense to believe in God otherwise where did that little ball of matter and energy come from and where is it going?
Small Moves Ellie
One of my favorite movies is “Contact” with Jodie Foster. You have to admit, it’s great Sci-Fi…and if you haven’t watched it’s a “must see”. 🙂 Any way, I remember one scene where I was blown away by Jodie Foster’s acting. It was the scene where she sees everything inside the sphere and breaks down crying because she is overwhelmed at the beauty of the universe. That’s how I see things. Take a look at nature and you can see God’s hand in creating beauty.
Have you ever looked at the bottom of a pine cone? Probably not. I have a strange habit of collecting pine cones and setting them on their sides so that I can see the bottoms. Everyone who comes over always “rights” the pine cones and then I put them on their sides again. They usually come back in the room and give me a strange look. It’s quite comical. OK…OK….let me tell you why I do that. Fibonacci, that’s why. No, that’s not an Italian Deli in New York. Fibonacci is a mathematical sequence that is found throughout nature. It is a pattern where the the 2 previous numbers in the pattern, when added together makes the next. For example: 1,1,2,3,5,8…etc. It’s everywhere…bottoms of pine cones, sunflowers, spiral galaxies, spiral snail shells and more. Almost all plants in nature exhibit the Fibonacci sequence somehow.
Now it’s gonna get crazier. Divide any fibonacci number (especially the larger ones) by the one before it in the sequence and you get what is commonly referred to as the “Golden Ratio” which is 1.618…… Yup…that’s everywhere too. Are you ready??? The human body is the literal expression of the golden ratio and they have even found the number demonstrated at the quantum level of our atomic structure. Read More Here. Also, here’s a video about how fibonacci appears through out nature…enjoy.
There’s more but and if you’re interested you can read about the “Golden Rectangle” next. So, does that prove anything? Nope, but if I were a betting man I would be putting my money on belief in a creator rather than a scientific process. That’s just me. There’s even science to back me up. Read This.
In a recent study, the 3-year survival rate for patients with metastatic non-small cell lung cancer was significantly higher than for those with a high faith score vs individuals with a low faith score. This was a small study (only 50 patients), but something we should pay attention to given the inadequate treatment options we now have. I do think it is important to point out that having faith does not guarantee survival. Many of us know of someone – who despite having a very strong faith and active spiritual life – lost their battle with cancer. Here’s the Link
How I Live With My Faith
Sitting on the couch, doing nothing and trusting God to heal me is the exact opposite of what I believe and do. I believe that I must still be practical and be diligent. I’m seeking the best doctors, researching everything as fast and hard as I can and trying to change my life style to fight the cancer in my body. For example, if I’m hungry then I have to go and get the food and cook it…not pray for a miracle, agree? Of course, I pray for a full recovery but I do my part as well. I use what God has given me and ask God to make up for what I am lacking.
So, what do you think? Don’t you think faith is important in your battle against cancer? Faith is good for my attitude, helps motivate me when I’m down and gives me hope for the future. The truth is that I don’t need any math, science or other things for me to know that there is a loving God out there. To me, I see it everywhere. If you have no faith then maybe take a moment and ask God give it to you. It’s MY hope for you. 🙂
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